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THE MONSTER

THERE ARE WORSE MONSTERS

FOR MATURE READERS ONLY

 THAN VAMPIRES.

          Oh… hey.  Late-night jog?

          You’re probably wondering why someone’d be sitting here, on this bench, in this neighborhood, at this time of night.  I guess “people-watching” won’t cut it, huh? 

          Sure, I’ll explain, calm down.  But it goes back a ways.

          I grew up your typical American lost cause.  Mom died in childbirth, Dad was killed in a car wreck couple of years later.  So foster families, here I come.  Not an original story.

          First family I was with, they were honestly good people.  I liked ‘em.  They ran a restaurant downtown.  Things break different, maybe we’re not sitting here at 3AM.  But things broke the way they broke.  Some rich asshole bought everything up ten cents on the dollar, squeezed everyone out.  I remember how angry the old man was when they made him sign everything away.  They lost everything, couldn’t take care of a kid proper.  So back in the system I went.

          Next foster family… wasn’t as nice.  Lots of sitting locked in a dark basement that stank of mildew and stale ketchup, hoping an owl would save me, if you get my drift.  Lots of yelling, fighting - soon as I could, I left.  But I never forgot.  Went back once.  Wasn’t gonna be smacked around anymore.

          Lots of stuff happened since, yada yada.  Which brings me to last night.

          Guess you could say I was “people-watching” last night over by the pavilion, just after sundown.  Parked out of the way, nice and quiet.  Didn’t think anyone really noticed me, nobody ever does.  Didn’t think anyone else was in the car, either, when those cold hands grabbed my arms, pinned them back, and I felt the pain in my neck.

          I knew I was bleeding. I knew that smell.

          The last thing I saw before everything went black was my rearview mirror.  There was nothing there.  And then…

…then I woke up in the dark, in the back seat of my car.  Seats were sticky with blood, caked in it.  Made that squishy sound.  And I was starving.

And somebody was in the front seat.

          “Wakey wakey,” he whispered.  “You’ve been asleep all day.”

          What the actual fuck?

          “You see that on your wrist, friend?” he asked quietly.  Dude had an accent, maybe Russian, maybe German, who the hell knows.  I looked down at a metal bracelet on my right wrist.  This one here, actually.  For a second I panicked, thought it was a handcuff, grasped around for anything to pop it off.

          “You could say that,” he said with a light chuckle.  How’d he know what I was thinking?  “You are being bound to me now.  Disobey, and you will feel pain like you never ima—”

          That was when I shoved the crowbar I kept in the floorboard through the back of the seat.  I remember it sliding through so smooth.  I had no idea what I hit, but I heard him gurgle.  Then a tap on the horn.  It passed right through.

          I suddenly felt a burning in my wrist, shooting down my arm.  And screaming.  So loud.  I thought it was him screaming, practically in my ear.

          He tried to pull away.  I remember he growled.  Thought that was damn weird.  Crying, okay.  Begging, maybe.  Yelling, sure.  But growling was new.  He kicked and pulled, but I held the curved end in one hand as I slid my other hand around in the dark.

          He turned his head, and I got a faint glimpse of his face in the dark.  He wasn’t screaming, but he was mad.  I thought his eyes flashed red.  And when he spit, I thought I saw fangs.

          This guy was a monster.

          My fingers fumbled along the floorboard, over the duct tape, over the folds of the tarp, and finally found the wire.  I let go of the crowbar just fast enough to wrap it around my hands.  As I reached to slip it around his neck, he pulled up, almost hard enough to pull the crowbar straight through the seat.  The hook clanged against something metal inside the upholstery, keeping him trapped.

          By then, the wire was wrapped around his neck, and I pulled.  I expected him to kick for a few minutes as I strangled him.  My right arm felt like it was on fire.

          Imagine my surprise when the wire cut clean through and wrapped around the headrest.  Another tap on the horn as his head bounced off the steering wheel.

          Then imagine my surprise when his body just went up in flames.

          I screamed, I know I screamed.  I kicked the door open and flew out, patted myself down, convinced I was on fire, too.  But I wasn’t.  Just the joker in the driver’s seat.

          I looked around.  No light, except from the car.  I thought I was in a garage, but there was no door besides the roll-up door, which I could barely tell was orange.  And God, did it stink.  Smelled like blood and piss and… death.

          Would’ve puked except I was so fucking hungry.

          I lifted the roll-up slowly and saw it was one of those self-storage places.  Must’ve been his.  My head started to pound.  I got the shakes like I was gonna really puke this time.  My right arm felt numb, thought maybe I was having a stroke.  I swear I was so hungry that a voice in my head started to whisper.  It said, “Feed.”

          Those storage places can be a maze, y’know, but I found the entrance quick enough.  I figured I’d talk any rent-a-cops into just letting me out, no harm, no foul, right? 

          But then I saw him, some old fat fuck with his feet up, watching something on his phone.  Probably had a gun he never planned on using.  Probably had grandkids somewhere…

          Barely felt the gravel as I ran - just that hunger.  Don’t think he looked up before I was on him.  He had time to gasp.  Then I bit into his neck like he was a fucking juice pouch.  I felt him punch my shoulders and kick around, but he didn’t stop me.  I just drank.

          It was… well, best word I could use would be “bliss.”

          Eventually I stopped.  I wasn’t hungry anymore.  Looked down at the dead body under me.  Chalk white.  Eyes open and looking at nothing.  Not even a gun, either.  I was the last thing he saw.

          I was the last… thing he saw.

          I looked up at one of those round security mirrors.  Saw him splayed out - but I didn’t see me.

          Funny how sometimes something just dawns on you.  It can be the craziest shit, something you wouldn’t think of five minutes earlier.  But when it hits, it’s like everything falls into place at once.

          The fucker in the car.  The blood.  The crowbar.  The fire.  The stink.  The hunger.  The mirror.

          I was a goddamn vampire.

The threat of a vampire looms over a dimly-lit park bench in this illustration for "The Monster."

          I remember I chuckled a little at the thought.  Made no sense, but actually made perfect sense.  I mean, it was what it was, but weird shit’s still weird shit.

          I never thought about dying before.  Thought about death, though.  Constantly on my mind.  But never dying myself.  Wasn’t on my list of things to worry about.  See?  Funny.

          I checked the guard’s phone.  Just after midnight - not three hours ago, in fact.  How ‘bout that.

          I dragged him back to my car.  Threw him in the back.  His leg caught on the hook of the crowbar that was still dangling through the driver’s seat, but it didn’t matter.  Wasn’t planning on driving it anymore, after tonight.

          I fished a lighter out of his pocket and lit the old man’s pants on fire.  Watched the fire spread for a minute before walking out and slamming the orange door closed.

          Took a second then.  Took a breath.  So, this is really happening, I thought.

          By the time I hopped the fence, the car finally exploded.  Or maybe someone had a meth lab in the locker next door and it exploded, who knows.  But I didn’t look back.  I bet you heard the sirens, didn’t you?

          Once I got my bearings, figured out where I was, it took me maybe a half-hour to get home.  I already had blackout curtains in my apartment, so I wasn’t worried about sunrise.  But I wanted to shower and rinse whatever vampire crap I had off me. 

          The smell was strong.  Actually reminded me of that damn basement.  Fucking foster dad had a “family recipe” for beef stew.  It was just ketchup and brown sugar slow-cooked for eight hours.  Had to choke down that sludge down every day.  Gross then, gross now.  I still kinda smell it right now, like it crawled up my nose and died for all eternity.  Ugh.

          I watched the blood and ooze rinse off and swirl down the drain.  Couldn’t see myself anymore, so I stood under the shower until the hot water ran out.  Felt some stubble as I ran my hands over my face.  Guess that’s permanent now.

          Tried to pull this damn bracelet over my hand and off my wrist.  Wouldn’t budge with the water.  It was cold, even under the hot shower.  Every time I pulled, it felt like it was digging into my skin deeper.  Fuck it, I thought, I’ll get it off later.  Little did I know.

          When I was done, I felt so damn heavy.  I made it to the bed, wrapped a bedspread over my head, and just wanted to crash.

          Then the pain hit again.  My wrist started to itch.  And I heard that damn voice again say, “Feed.”

          Which brings us here.

          See that house over there?  The one with the fancy fence and the fake grass in the yard?  Guess who lives there.  Actually, I was hoping you’d know his name, but it doesn’t matter.  Never would’ve come here before tonight, nowhere near here.  But… the voice said…

          Hey, never mind the bracelet.  I don’t know why I’m pulling at it, it’s not coming off.  It itches, okay?  Let it go.

          But yeah.  That’s the guy who screwed over my first foster dad, some big-shot asshat developer.  I bet that contract he signed is in some file cabinet somewhere.  After he watches me drain his wife dry, after I drain him dry, I’ll…

          Oh, relax, friend.  I couldn’t care less about you.  We’re just having a nice little chat.  So keep your ass planted there, hmm?

          Besides, you think that rent-a-cop earlier was my first?  What do you think happened to my second foster family once I went back home?  Do you really think “people-watching at the pavilion” is a thing?

          Everyone has a hobby.  Some folks buy paint for arts and crafts.  I get duct tape and tarps at the hardware store.  Nobody’s ever found where I dump the leftover bits, and nobody ever will.  You get a lot of ideas when you’re locked in a dingy basement with nothing else to do.  Watch the news sometime, geez.

          But now?  Now I don’t have to worry about shit like duct tape.  And I don’t care about “evidence” anymore.  They used to worry about someone like me snatching them up.  Now they’ll be scared shitless of what else could happen.

          Now I’m the real monster.

          And maybe, maybe I could use a friend.  Heh, not you.  Asshat in there has a kid, I think.  Maybe I’ll save him from getting stuck in a basement eating runny ketchup recipes like I was.  Start growing my own little family.

          Oh, hey - I can tell you want to run now.  Go ahead.  Probably best if you just forget this whole chat.  Otherwise, you’ll just look over your shoulder for the rest of forever.

          Besides - who the hell would believe you?

Text and illustration © T.J. Lindsey. All rights reserved.

Posted December 24, 2025

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